Laurie Jacobsen



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Peregrino The word peregrino means pilgrim, in Spanish. I am a pilgrim.

My husband and I decided that for his next birthday we are going to walk the Camino de Santiago de Compostela (The Way of St. James, in English) – a pilgrim walk that begins, traditionally, in France and ends at El Catedrál de Santiago, in northwestern Spain, where the shrine to the apostle St. James the Great is and where his remains are purportedly buried. People have been walking the Camino for over 1200 years. It is said that the Camino lies directly beneath the Milky Way and that it follows the ley lines that reflect the energy of the stars above it (I completely geek out over stuff like this.). The Camino was one of the most important Christian pilgrimages during the Middle Ages and almost 300,000 people from all over the world still walk The Way today.

You are required to walk 100 km of the trip to be considered an actual pilgrim and receive your Compostela certificate, but our plan is to walk about 160 km, walking between 13-16 km per day for 12 days. I’m hoping there are foot massages at the end of every day. A girl can dream.

People walk the Camino for a whole host of reasons and I have several. The first is spiritual in nature. No matter how hard I try, I cannot get the idea out of my little Catholic schoolgirl head that suffering in the name of spirituality wins you Brownie Points. While the very rational part of my brain knows this is false, there is something about the idea of taking an arduous walk and thinking of nothing but spiritual things and you know, blisters, and how badly your back hurts, and then offering all of that up to God, that makes my inner plaid-wearing girlie squeal with delight. But seriously, I can’t begin to tell you how much the idea of 12 days of walking and talking to God and others on a similar spiritual walk appeals to me. Makes me giddy just thinking about it.


Another reason that I want to walk the Camino is because, Dear God, I need a fitness goal! I have been sedentary for YEARS and having a goal to prepare for physically is just the motivation I need to get off of my duff and get moving.

Yet another reason for doing this is to spend this time with Wayne. He is such a treasure and when we get time alone on vacation we always have such an awesome time together and have really amazing and deep talks. I am so looking forward to what this trip in particular could bring up in terms of conversations. I’m guessing they are going to be quite juicy.

The reason that I said that “I am a pilgrim” in that very first little paragraph at the beginning of this post is because yesterday, while I was out walking my 5th 3.5 miles of the week, I was thinking about how I was doing this in “preparation” for being a pilgrim at some point in the future and then like a sucker punch I heard, “what you’re doing is a pilgrimage.” And that voice was exactly right. This is the pilgrimage. This is the journey – this is the sacred journey. I’m already on it. It has already begun.

We aren’t going to walk the Camino for about a year and a half. And who knows if it will ever happen? But, for now, I know that I am a pilgrim walking on a pilgrimage to me.

Making, Making, Making!

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I recently went to Hawaii with a bunch of girlfriends. It's my first time doing anything like that. What I love about this particular group of ladies is that they're super crafty and creative artists. Just about everyone brought something to make or paint. It was so fun being with them and watching the creativity abound!

Since I've been home I've been on a making tear! I've been creating some gorgeous pour paintings. What I love about these paintings is that the planning and prep is the biggest part of them...and I'm a researcher and planner, so it fits me perfectly!

Lava Flow


Planning the colors, the paint mixture and where and how the paint gets placed and then how it gets moved around the canvas has been pure pleasure for me. Look for me to be making tons more of this type of painting.

These paintings will be available for wholesale sale very soon. Add yourself to my email list to find out when they're available. And keep coming back to the blog to see what's new!

I'd love to know what color combinations you'd love to see!

Fight, Flight or Freeze

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I don’t know if it’s a common trait of Introverts, or if it’s just me, but when I’m suffering I hide. I take to the sidelines and do my best to blend in. I don’t want everyone to know that things are bad. I will talk to a small group of friends, sometimes even sharing that things aren’t perfect, but very seldom do I actually share HOW bad things are. Almost never while things are going on. A week ago I did that. I reached out to one of my very best friends and shared that things are really bad. This has been one of the hardest years of my life – one in which every day I was afraid my husband was going to lose his job and we were going to lose our new home. And one in which my dog was attacked by coyotes in our pretty new back yard. Every day was scary. And every day I felt like I was drowning. About six weeks ago I went to a chiropractor. New fangled chiropractors do all sorts of tests on you that measure all sorts of things related to your central nervous system, which controls every single thing about your body. So essentially, if your CNS is out of whack, so are you.

When I met with him to review the results of my tests, what I saw both shocked and horrified me and didn’t surprise me at all. I won’t bore you with all of the details, but I’ll tell you that my spine has more curves than a Formula One racetrack and he said that I’m basically living in a constant state of fight, flight or freeze.

He could see that, based on physical test results.

He said that I don’t have any reserves and that I don’t recover from stressors – like at all. That stressors just keep heaping one on top of the other, and I have no ability to move on from them. It was shocking to me to have someone clinically say what I know to be true deep down inside me, and SUCH A HUGE RELIEF that someone else knew it and that it wasn’t “just me” and I wasn't crazy.

Here is an excerpt from that test: “Heart Rate Variability helps the doctor to determine your overall ability to adapt to the environment. It does this by looking at the timing of your pulse, and determining the balance and tension within your nervous system. Stressful lifestyles, habits including poor dietary choices, limited exercise and constant emotional aggravation can cause the body to be caught in a “fight-flight” response. This can lead to exhaustion and a draining of a person’s reserves. A score within the green box is associated with better adaptability and relates to a healthy lifestyle. Low heart rate variability is associated with accelerated aging and poor heart health. Published research has shown that chiropractic adjustments have a beneficial effect on heart rate variability.”

Needless to say, I was not in the green box, nor the yellow. I was in the orange and received a failing grade. He also pointed out that any medications that I am taking, i.e. for depression and anxiety have falsely INFLATED my score, so my failing score, without meds, is actually failing and then some.

That was depressing! And I don’t recover from depressing things. I have no reserves. And then my dog was attacked by 2 coyotes for the second time in a year (that I fought off!) and then I found a snake in my art studio. I felt like I was coming unglued. And I don’t recover from stressful things. I have no reserves.

I’m sharing this with you while I’m in the middle of it because my hunch is that some of you may also feel like you’re living in a constant state of fight, flight or freeze (isn’t it EXHAUSTING???) and you may feel like you have no reserves. And I want you to know that you’re not alone. You are not alone.

I’m sorry to say that I don’t have any answers for you. I know my answer is to keep going to the chiropractor three times a week and try to get my central nervous system back on line and see if that helps. So far, after six weeks, things are changing – not improving quite yet, but change is happening and I have to believe that’s a good thing. He tells me it is.

I’m trying to eat better and I’m taking vitamins and supplements. Maybe be one of these days I’ll try exercise. Honestly, I don’t want to make too many changes at once!! And I’m trying not to scare myself on purpose (adrenaline is addicting) with movies and books and such, and am watching happy, sappy movies and listening to happy music. All things that should help.

Thinking happy thoughts over here and sending love from me to you.


Handmade Quilt - Beach Style!

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Beach-ey Fabrics for a Handmade Quilt

I have something VERY special planned for this fabric! I'm making a handmade quilt with it that I designed myself with the beach in mind. Don't these fabrics make you want to run to a cottage on the beach and snuggle up underneath them? Me too!


Handmade Quilt on the "Design Wall"

Here is the work in progress!



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Everyday Grace Course Launches Today!

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I'm launching an email course! This is some of the content that we discuss at my retreats. This email course is PACKED with videos and teachings and worksheets and journal prompts and guided meditations all designed to help you to find, receive and give Grace. For the cost of a couple cups of coffee each week, you'll get a class that will change how you see yourself and the world! Click the link below to be taken to the info page!